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  And I find myself (again), plotting for the unpredictables. Even tho I still have no idea what or who I will end up with. But for sure, I'm preparing little by little. A counselor of mine once said, if something seems to be so big on your mind, try to take baby steps. Small steps, barely unrecognizable by bare eyes, but it's there. Even when nobody's noticing, it indeed is there. Even when I feel like it is ridiculous and embarrassing, I will do it anyway. Because no one will promise me a dream of rainbows and butterflies, if it's not me myself. So, I gotta be independent. Just prepare for everything, for the best and yet the worst as well. I know Allah believes that I'm able to do hard things, so I decided to believe myself about that, too. I'm going to be my biggest supporter. Wish me luck, and watch me bloom. Banyumas , 23rd of December 2023 The sun has just set.

What do you want in a family? A pattern. A routine. Two way communication. A pattern that won't disappear just because the people inside the family are no longer a kid. A routine that would guide every single member of the family into their managed life, with clear direction and destinations. Communications that eases the needs that each person had in the house. Rules that keep everything in place, which would adjust as the time goes by, following every growth that happened there. Care for each other, doesn't mean that it is equal to zero argument because conflicts are important, too.  Argue because we try to find the balance for all, with the healthiest way possible. Giving input for each other, which would build this home even stronger. Maintaining good relationships with others, not only family by blood but also outside the house. I wanted to build a family so strong yet so warm and supportive, to be the best environment for each of us to grow into the best version of ours